Yesterday marked the one year anniversary of my last day working at Target meaning that today marks the one year anniversary of starting the crazy adventure of being a full time artist. I was sitting in bed last night thinking how strange that its only been a year. It seems as if I’ve been doing this my whole life. Not in a way I regret either, it just comes so naturally to me to be doing this. Of course, I’ve worked more this past year than I have in my entire life times ten. Also my social life now consists mainly of outings to the post office and talking with equally socially awkward artists at art shows but I can honestly say that this is the happiest I have been in my entire life. I can’t recall a day where I woke up and regretted my decision. Quite the opposite really, I usually find myself asking why me of all people, do I get to be blessed enough that I actually get to live out my dreams. Most people don’t ever realize theirs and to have mine come true when I was just 24 is nothing short of a miracle.
In a year I’ve gone from having a total of six journals sitting on a shelf and working myself into debt from buying supplies to just recently having my most successful show and looking at getting an apartment/studio along the north shore in the near future. That’s not to say its been easy. Running your own business, especially one where you are creating what’s being sold is a very trying thing for a person to do. You’re more or less selling pieces of yourself making any rejection extra painful. Like I said though, I’ve never been happier in my entire life. Who knew that it was actually possible to do this for a living?
During my most recent show, I had several artists come and tell me how nice it is to have someone young doing art shows. As one rather animated fiber artist said, “I look around and see a lot of gray hairs and it scares me to think that this could die”. It scares me too. One of the things I hope to get more involved in is encouraging other young people to get into the world of creating and selling their wares. I understand that not everybody is as crazy as me where they can just quit their old life completely and start from scratch but even just creating enough stuff to try one small local show can open your eyes to a whole new way of life. If you’re reading this and you have a creative bone in your body I dare you to at least attempt it. If its in your soul and its meant to be, it will be. Just don’t doubt yourself for even a second.
So what do I have planned for this upcoming year? Honestly, I’m not sure yet. I have four shows lined up in the next month and a half so I’ll be spending most of my time working in my studio until those are over. Then I’ll breathe for a week and maybe travel somewhere because nothing frees you like living in your car for awhile. (See? Crazy.) Then it will be time to prepare for Christmas and several more shows. Once that is done I plan on relocating myself to New Orleans for a month or so and then finally look at settling down somewhere along the north shore. And by settling down I mean obtaining a semi-permament place of a residence. Its been a while since I’ve had my name on a lease like a real adult.
So that’s about it.
Perhaps I should throw myself an office party tonight. Just me, my cat and a bottle of wine. Artists really know how to live it up.
“One more for the stars and the eyes of the walls
I saw your face, I heard you callin’ out
I saw your face in the crowd and you came out
Just like the sun and the moon and the stars at night
There was a sign on the door and it reads to me
Just like the sun and the moon and the stars at night”
-The Head And The Heart